Winning but losing
Posted on May 15th, 2012
This is not one of those tech posts. There is no idea here. This is a rant post, if not philosophical!
I started out to win two things. It generally looked like winning one would make the second easier. I fooled myself into believing so. I won one thing. At least, I think I did.
The second thing is definitely not linked to the first. I still don’t understand why I presumed they were. Now am losing the second. It looks like I’ll have to lose it to keep the first victory. Wow! Did I just kill my dream?
Starting up is not easy. Killing a dream is just a few days rant. Losing tames you into accepting the world around you the way it is. I wanted a different world. I guess I ended up holding on to this one instead.



